i still remember this. our first time.

dear baby,
you mean alot to me. i don't want to lose you. not now. not ever. i'm sorry. i hope you'd let this go. but you must know it hurts me to hurt you. i'm my own biggest regret. i don't want your perception of me to change. i am still me. i won't force you to trust me back fully but i'll try to earn it. i don't care how long its gonna take. i don't want things between us to change but change is inevitable. i know. just so you know, you are worth every bit. i love you.

i think the reason why i acted that way was because i was mad at you for many things but i didn't tell you about them. i don't want to come off as an insecure and a jealous person. i don't get to meet you often so of course my thoughts would run wild. you didn't tell me stuffs about you. so practically i don't know anything about you that i'd like to know very much.

what happened made me realise how much i mean to you and seeing you near tears broke my heart. i realised that i miss you therefore i'm bitter all the time. HAHA. and i vent it all out by making you angry. i'm sorry.

this time i promise you i will not listen to whoever that tries to break us apart. you may not know about this. i didn't realise it at first. i trust you now.

forgive me baby.