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FUCK O LEVEL LAHH! its sucking my life away.


missed school twice this week. i hate F&N. MOE should close down the subject so no more people would get cheated. i thought it was only about cooking but nope we are learning about nutrition and all the sciences behind food. no way man! i told you right, science isn't my forte.

i myself wonder sometimes how i can stay so patient. i wish i have enough courage to lash everything out but no. i don't know if its worth the trouble. because i already know where i stand. i could just let it be. arghhhh! i don't know. was it really unreasonable what i brought up the other time? i thought not. at least practice a little bit of discretion. but its good that i've known. so i guess now its not wrong to talk to whoever, whenever, right?

its been a week since we saw each other. i don't mind if you want to have your gay party. okay. i do mind. why now? why not other times? i don't know what is important to you. do you realise what you've been saying doesn't match up to what you've been doing? i guess not. this needs a getting used to. maybe i think too much into things.

stupid things always happen at the wrong times. it either i'm touchy or my mom is. i think its my mom. she says i go out too much, i'm always home late-_-  umm, no mom. just because you were asleep when i got back doesn't mean i'm late. you were tired. so what? go to sleep. i'm not bothering you. i think its MENOPAUSE. i thought with barely anybody home she'd have peace at last but no, shes picking on me now instead. however childish it may sound. it felt that way. few months ago i stopped fighting with her. thought i could keep up the momentum, guess not. it only makes me feel worse after SO I SHOULD STOP!

ive been having this stomachache from Monday. who the hell has stomachaches this long? and its all because i had too much to eat that day. WTH!

lastly, my earpiece which i broke my back to get it is not doing its end of the bargain. fvck! i'm gonna get the metal ones so it wont get spoilt anymore. whoever genius enough to invent it would get to sleep with me. HAHA! kiddings.

since i've not been free enough to blog often, i took up writing into diaries last week and so far there has only been 3 entries so i'm gonna bury the idea. i want to pick up a new skill. i want to join this malay dance troupe. but i'm not sure. haha. prolly not. i can't keep up.

life's been dull as day. whats new anyway?
this has been one random ball of a post.